Sunday, 31 December 2017

Bye for now.

I've been rewatching the series Friends again for the ... umm i lost count .. but i feel like it's at least the 6th time or so lol. If it's not obvious enough, i love this series so much and although for the most part it's just really funny, i find it so refreshingly relatable in a real world sense. Not like Grey's Anatomy, Gossip Girl or How to Make a Murderer. Real world problems like the ones Rachel had when she decided to live in the city. The character development Rachel Green goes through from the first season to the tenth, it's inspiring for someone who sees herself exactly in that position but can't really picture her own self-growth in the next 9 seasons of my life.

Thursday, 28 December 2017

That time of the month again, girls.

It's about to get real graphic... 

Like most girls out there, I do not look forward to a visit from Bloody Mary every month. It's just such an overall hassle and unconformable and of course, the pain that comes with her on the day she chooses to announce herself. I could go on and on about the cons of this cycle but i'll cut straight to the solution. 

Tuesday, 26 December 2017

"I never once in my life when i started to grow apart from these people did i ever think that i was better than them. It's just i stopped relating to them. We couldn't have the conversations that we used to because my mentality was different and there's was the same. Or maybe their mentally changed and mine was always the same." David So

Saturday, 2 December 2017

Half way mark.

Greasy hair               
Unmotivated gaze    
Coffee in hand          

I'm at the half way mark of my last year in uni.
Currently perched at my new fav study spot facing
a window, wet from the rain, beaming natural light on me. I had a submission yesterday & now I'm working on 3 more + studying for 2 tests before the final exams roll in. Only thing keeping me intact at the moment is my Mossery planner, helping me be a lil more efficient with my time on top of my FYP and rugger secretary duties. You would think I'd be too busy to think about anything else but times like these is when i seem to self-reflect the most.
Recently, had a conversation with a friend I've gotten really close to about being average. I've mentioned before abt how I'm acceptive of me not being the best of the best at anything I do. She feels the same way but she isn't ok with it & i think i really need to start adopting that mentality, without self-deprecating myself too much. To not be content with what/where i am in order to progressively be better as an individual. I guess Ive gotten to a point of trying that's stopped me from comparing myself with others (the best). I do work hard and try my best but it's never to be the best at it. Maybe I need to believe in myself more? xx

Tuesday, 21 November 2017

Horror fever.

"Okay doctor check darah kejap eh?"

I was sick on & off last week. I hated being so weak, didn't participate in rugby at all. I had a lot going on for me last week, all of which i was super excited for. A night out, a touch friendly match, my brother's wedding and a concert! By Thursday, i was completely bed ridden and thank god i was taken care of. Went to the clinic and the doctor told me he needed to check my blood for an infection and as expected gave me ton of meds after.

Sunday, 5 November 2017

Sacrifices for the big.

"It's like the stupid truth of things these days.

Nothing is ever ever black & white. 

Grey is all we ever get. And if we're lucky, it doesn't turn us grey as well."

- Conversations with Sha


The Royals repping the new UNMC Rugby Club gear. 
Another acronym? Don't worry. This doesn't stand for something as sad as the last. It radiates a complete polar opposite feeling actually. Lady of the Match. I know the term is man of the match, but i am not a man, but i am however a lady...

Saturday, 28 October 2017


Can we seriously talk about this right now? Without judgement. It's pretty self-explanatory. 

F e a r    o f     M i s s i n g    O u t. 

Friday, 6 October 2017

Paper Tearing Solutions

Ever since i left high school, there was always this notion of "Cut out the people in your life that bring you down, cut them out cut out the negativity" 

Thursday, 14 September 2017

Photo Diary: Creative Outlet

Current obsession/creative outlet: Gudak

I hope these photos i've taken randomly over the past few days will give you visual pleasure ...

I'm too good pho you.

Sunday, 10 September 2017

Food For Thought #8

Have you ever made a decision for yourself you knew you shouldn't have?
Have you ever made a decision because it seemed like the decision you should make?
Cause in the eyes of those involved, it was what was right for all parties.
But you knew, deep down it wasn't the right one for you. For you, it brought out a bad side out of you. A side of you that you did not miss. A part that you so desperately wanted to let go.
Even though you knew, it came with such a heavy sacrifice because it takes so so so much with it if you let go.

Thursday, 17 August 2017

Short internship experience

I've been very very busy since i started my internship at ash be nimble and haven't really had the chance to write about my experience. Or any free time I had, i was too tired to write. Just in case you're wondering who they are, ash be nimble is a local affordable sportswear brand. When i say affordable, i mean everything is literally less than RM100... Granted they don't have as many designs as lulu lemons but i'm sure you all know how hard it is to find affordable sportswear nowadays.

Anyways, I thought it'd be better for me to be completely done with it before i wrote my comprehensive opinion about it. I'll explain in the end why it was so short. Super short but super good. There's nothing short about this post though but i'll try to make sure it's not a snooze fest.

Wednesday, 21 June 2017

Sings for itself

M I D - W E E K    B L U E S 

I've shared this song on here before, months & months ago.
The most painfully honest and unapologetic words I've heard.

Teaching yourself to not give a shit has consequences my friends.
I find it extremely difficult to put how i feel into words, something i feel like i used to be good at or at least less incompetent than i am now. I mean, yes I've learnt to hold back things that aren't worth the fight or I've learnt to be less petty (note: Less petty, I'm human so i can't get rid of it) but now when i need to articulate any kind of melancholic emotion i struggle so much and other people suffer the consequences too. I become a walking contradiction most of the time because I'm afraid to be as brutally honest & unapologetic as Banks is in this song.

Monday, 12 June 2017


R I G H T    N O W

Right now, certain things (actually just this one thing) in my personal life isn't going swimmingly well, I was finally able to pry myself out of bed for something a little more productive today.

  I got an internship @ Ash Be Nimble, a local startup fitness wear line! YAY

The interview didn't start great but once we progressed, it was great to hear everything i wanted to hear from the founder/my boss herself. She had to bring 1 1/2 year old daughter along but it only worked in my favor cause she loved me hahah. I had a couple issues with several internships i applied for this Summer but it all worked out in the end, I hope. I start this Thursday and I'm very excited to get busy again or in other words, excited to keep my mind occupied and distracted.

Monday, 22 May 2017


My Summer break just began. 
I feel a little selfish for not rejoicing as much as I should be. 
Summer also means i have to face certain things that I have been putting off 
since i've been in Semenyih.
But I'm ready to get out of this rut that I've been in for months. 
I miss a lot of things about me, writing on this blog is definitely one of them.
I've said countless timeless before,

I write to liberate. I write to express. I write to share. 
I write to be creative. I write to write.

Till then xx

Wednesday, 1 March 2017

Legally blegh

// future (usually near); prospects //

I'm not gonna apologize for the little hiatus since my last post because there's no words to express the limbo of thoughts that I've been a captive of. 
I was really looking forward to write up for my 21st birthday but when the time came, I felt a little less hopeful and that came with no real inspiration or passion to write. I almost always ever write only when i feel like it; I never liked this being an action forced upon me following any sort of deadline even thought i used to write at least once a week. 

Wednesday, 1 February 2017

Change of pace

My first week on break has been really chill. My sister was on break from work and i spent most days lazing around with my siblings or playing card games with them. But finally on Monday, I made plans so there was some what of a change of pace. 

Thursday, 12 January 2017


Asel, the girl i had the pleasure of getting close to this semester.
M A J O R   P R O C R A S T I N A T I O N

If you can't already guess...yes i'm in the midst of my first semester final examinations for my 2nd
year of degree. And if you can't already it did not start out so good. 

Tuesday, 3 January 2017

LDR again.

Lemme just start by saying i hate LDR.
I had my peace with it and admit that it's not that bad 
but once i got reminded of what it's like to spend actual time together,
i hated the distance between us. 

Only cute picture of us while he was here during NYE