Thursday, 22 December 2016

Human, A film by Yann Arthus-Bertrand


Castellers in Vilafranca del Penedès, Catalonia, Spain. (© HUMANKIND Production. All rights reserved)
Caravan of yaks in the dunes near Skardu, the Indus valley. (© HUMANKIND Production. All rights reserved)
Gojal Lake, northern Pakistan (© HUMANKIND Production. All rights reserved)

I'm a movie buff, always have been so i have watched a ton of films.
But rarely do I come across a film that's real.
Real in it's speech, real in it's purpose
since the documentary Blackfish (which I highly recommend to watch)
This documentary film HUMAN was genuinely

thought-provoking, tear-jerking & laughter-inducing.
Not to forget, incredibly awe-inspiring.


Saturday, 10 December 2016

Food For Thought #6

A  V  E  R  A  G  E  


Not thin, but not fat.
Not pretty, but not ugly.
Not tall, but not short.
Not smart, but not stupid.
Not good, but not bad.

Thursday, 1 December 2016

You see me as an Anti-D replacement


Just felt like putting something up since it's the first day of the last month of the year. Insane how fast time flies huh? This year has been a whirlwind, still working on a 2016 reflection post but it feels never ending. I was blessed with so much good and my fair share of bad. More rambling about that in another post but for now just some tunes.



Tuesday, 22 November 2016

Fragile



Currently not in the best physical state as I'm writing this. 
Filling myself up with my, technically, second meal of the day 
since i threw up my first meal close to half hour after consuming it.
Whoops, TMI.

On a really really personal note, something i very rarely talk about even 
with Ariff or my peers is about my health. Something we all should be wary of, 
our physical limitations and how we should work hard to overcome them. 
Allah SWT has already blessed us with so much, our healthy able bodies 
that we ever so often take for granted each morning we wake up 
forgetting to thank Him for His mercy.
Now, I am not the most pious person in the world, clearly but what i have had
made myself make a habit of is waking up every single morning and exhaling the words;
Alhamdullilah.

Saturday, 19 November 2016

Rewind

Things haven't exactly been all sunshine and rainbows so this post is dedicated to me. Things i should be proud of, however small, to get me out of my head and back to reality because truth be told, things aren't always as bad as we make them out to be. I personally love these, re-reading them is such a treat in the future.

Friday, 4 November 2016

Food For Thought #5

It has become more apparent to me that 
 it's difficult to find balance. 
In everything.
Studies, exercise, family, boyfriend, friends, food lol
It's so difficult to live unapologetically
with anyone.
It's so difficult to jaga hati 
everyone.

Friday, 21 October 2016

Busy Bee




Current situation:
On my bed, starting my 10 day Halloween horror movie marathon with The Rite starring Anthony Hopkins. I've probably watched this movie at least 5 times but i love it. I love the question that the movie revolves around. Briefly, it is about a guy learning to become an exorcist but doubts his own faith, even in the devil itself.
"Just because you don't believe in the devil doesn't mean he doesn't exist. Be careful because it might even want to prove his existence to you, and trust me that's the last thing you want."

I finally have some down time after what was another hectic week. I feel like I've been saying that at the end of every week so far hahah. But furreal though, i didn't have any real down time at all this week. I usually have Wednesdays off and I use that time wisely! I usually study from 10AM till i have Zumba at 6PM. But this week, fuhhh. Honestly my own fault, i can be so kelam kabut at times and stress myself out over the solutions of my problems. Have to give props to Fariz for helping me out that day.


Saturday, 8 October 2016

Photo Diary: UNMC Rugby 16/17


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K  N  I  G  H  T  S   &   R  O  Y  A  L  S

My tiring, eventful and fun 2nd Week at uni revolved mostly around Rugby.


Sunday, 2 October 2016

First Week Done & Dusted


PHEW.
 It's only been the first week of my 2nd year and it was already pretty damn hectic, both mentally and physically exhausting. One thing about me, my mental state can stay preeeetty okay (besides the usual panic of fak so much to do) when I'm busy but my body is weak. I can easily over exert myself if i keep myself too busy and get sick. Which I am right now & so are a couple of my other friends. Maybe its just something thats been going around.

Studies wise, nothing is heavy yet other than 日本語 (Japanese), duh. I am easily the weakest in that class, stuttering my way mid sentences. I think its because Japanese was never my first choice language to take anyway but I've decided to just pull through it and survive. Keyword here: survive, on an average of 50 and buck up on my other subjects. Thats the best decision i could make.

Tuesday, 20 September 2016

End of Goodbyes

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Tania's Farewell // Friday, 16th September 

Amir and I organized a small little farewell for Tanners at The Bee, Publika but in all honesty, i give Amir full credit. I just helped invite everyone. It was nothing special but i knew she wanted to see as many people as she could before she flew off.

Sunday, 18 September 2016

Liverpool // KL

6  6  3  8    M  I  L  E  S



These aren't his fav photos of us (he's gonna kill me when he sees them) but they are mine. 
Look at how crazy happy we are, and only a little peek of how happy he makes me. 

Thursday, 8 September 2016

Food For Thought #4


N A  Ï  V  E 
nīˈēv/
adjective
(of a person or action) showing a lack of experience, wisdom, or judgment
(of a person) natural and unaffected; innocent 

Is it better to assume the worst in people?
Or at least not assume the best?
I've tried really hard to change my mindset from that.
Actively choose to see the best in people
the way I wish them to see me.
To give people the benefit of the doubt
because everyone knows we are our own worst critic.
Tak baik buruk sangka.


Saturday, 3 September 2016

Monday, 29 August 2016

Julio





If you know me, you know that my cats are a big part of my life.
 I consider them family and so they are number one. Today i had to say goodbye to one. 
My baby kitten Julio passed away this morning. It was so heartbreaking to know that he suffered so much in his last couple of days. When we noticed that he wasn't acting himself, the vet was closed so i had to wait till the next morning to bring him. I don't trust anybody but Kristy Ark's for the care of my babies. I'll tell you that i couldn't stop crying and i was almost angry at myself for not having bring him in earlier. Cause of death according to the vet was poisoning. He was an adventurous lil guy so he probably accidentally had eaten rat bait somewhere.


Good Company On A Good Day.


I don't know about you but i prefer busy days over lazy days any day of the week. 
To be completely honest, I do hate rushing from anywhere to anywhere but today was an exceptionally a not-so-rush busy day, i loved it.

Due to playing handball the night before plus a couple routine workouts for the past couple of days as well as coming up with sore throat, aallll accumulated and hit me right in the early morns. 
What sucked was that i had planned to try out Hot Yoga with Sofea and Sha but given the other 
1 000 001 things i needed to do, i didn't want to risk over exertion. 

So my day went little like this


Saturday, 27 August 2016

Photo Diary: Farewell Picnic


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Technically, sending Hanis off at the airport on Monday 
but she organized a lil picnic at the park/lake near her place before her official send off.

Here are some of the photos from the hottest picnic I've ever been to.



Friday, 26 August 2016

Food For Thought #3

I don't mean to but i depend so much of me on you 
and idk if you notice how much I actually hate that. 

Sunday, 21 August 2016

Weekend in Genting Highlands.

 G  O  O  D    V  I  B  E  S    F  E  S  T  I  V  A  L  


First off, sorry this took awhile to come out. It's been exactly a week and withdrawals have been... brutal. I'm preeeetty disappointed in my self for not pulling through with making a video dedicated to my weekend in Genting. Put waaay too much pressure on myself when it comes to that even though i know i have the capability to do so sigh. On a happier note, enjoy reading about the best weekend I've had so far during my summer break.


Back to reality

T  A  N  A  M  E  R  A

20/08/2016

I've had a pretty good weekend thus far. I know, a post about Good Vibes Festival should have gone up before this. This sounds ridiculous but writing it makes me so sad hahah so its taking longer than it should. Worry not! (if you're looking forward to it, which is unlikely lol) It's almost done and should be up not long after this.

I rarely do this but went out quuuiite a bit this week and saw Dzak more than i wanted to, three nights in a row hahah. Realized that i don't actually make an effort to see my friends unless they ask me out so i reversed the role this time and tried to instigate more. Saw Sofea after so long, missed that girl! And Mat whom i haven't hung out with in ages. It was good to catch up on everybody's life, both the good and the bad.
                   

Friday, 12 August 2016

Karma.

Current situation: In bed, with my freshly washed hair 
+
 an ice pack on my left foot (we'll get to why soon)

So i just finished packing for my weekend at Genting Highlands for GoodVibes Festival Aaaagghhh 
I'm so excited that i almost can't believe I'm going, its feel so surreal to me. My outfit crisis is still pretty apparent but I've brought options for me to choose from so i think ill survive. 

I went out with Ariff tonight for a movie, dinner and... Pokemon hunting at Central Park (the one next to One Utama). I wouldn't say I'm addicted and neither is he really, we just felt like it was better to do that in a park than in a mall. Plus, the weather was really nice and cloudy so it was nice to be outside in the fresh air. We weren't entirely hunting tbh it was just nice to walk and talk with him at the park burning time till we could have early dinner before our movie. Can do anything with him and never have a dull moment. I sincerely hope no one ever notices the weird things we do when we're together e.g. exaggerated impersonations/accents & his stupid faces that make me lmao every time. 

Monday, 8 August 2016

My Skincare Routine


PHEW this has been a long time coming but I am finally preeetty settled with my skincare routine.

Disclaimer: 
Firstly, I ain't no expert. These products cater perfectly fine for my skin type, dry & sensitive so if you have the same skin type as me then hopefully it'll work as well on you as it has been for me. 

Secondly, pretty basic rule, it's super important to know what your skin type is so that you know what your skin needs. A couple issues i struggled with my skin: panau, eczema, flakiness, dry patches, etc. Because my skin is so dry, I rarely ever have acne. If i do, they're always around my hairline and dry up before I even get the chance to pop it. I saw my dermatologists quite a lot through out my high school years because my panau would grow quite big across my cheeks. It wasn't pretty guys, kinda annoying too and took foooorrreevvverrr to get rid off. So, having seen a dermatologist i knew exactly what my skin type was and looked for products that helped deal with those issues. Honestly not that hard to self-proclaim what your skin type is so don't need to go to a professional to get your shit sorted out.

Thirdly, you needn't a complicated and extensive skincare routine to get to where you want with your skin. A simple wash and moisturize routine works just as well depending on your skin, usually for those with sensitive skin its better if you keep your routine simple to be sure you don't overload it with unnecessary products. My skin survived just fine on that for years until i realized i needed to give it more attention. 

Y'all know all the hype about korean skincare regime is no joke. My diva friend Tania aka Tannybuns was the first to introduce me to this gold mine. Koreans tend to go for that youthful, supple, dewy skin and i knew thats exactly what my dehydrated skin needed! You can learn more about it in depth here; 10 Step Korean Skincare Routine , they even offer great product recommendations. I have yet to complete all the 10 steps but I'm well on my way. The wallet just can't take it right now.


Tuesday, 2 August 2016

Radiate Good Vibes.


Wow. So. Fast.
I haven't done much at all this Summer and my time is nearly up. I did land a couple internships and had opportunities for part time jobs but decided to turn it down so i can be around to help out at home especially with Musa. 

But..It's finally August guys...

GoodVibes Festival is in 10 days!!!!!

*screechessss*

Sunday, 31 July 2016

Baby Sitter Diaries.

Musa, number one boy in my life.
I'm not done with Raya but Raya is done with me *sobs* Now that all the celebrations have finally ended for me, my daily life has simmered down to a dull roar.
My mom & I have been babysitting that little munchkin up there during the weekdays.
A little hard for me to head out the door in the day because taking care of a baby can be quite tiring, especially for my mom so i feel pretty bad leaving her alone with him. Not like he's a difficult baby but when he's awake, can't keep our eyes off him yknow?  Kak Sri (the best maid in the world) is around but obviously has other obligations thus a child would be too much on her plate.

Here are a couple things that i need to do when babysitting this cutie.

Monday, 25 July 2016

Being present.

25/07/2016

Apologies for leaving the blog on such a sour mood but my it's definitely been lifted since, i swear. 
I've just been spending a lot of my time and energy with a bunch of my favorite people. I realized I'm not very good at juggling time with all of em'. I have so many people to be grateful for and i know i tend to take some of them for granted.

Wednesday, 13 July 2016

Food For Thought #2

   
R E A S S U R A N C E 
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What if you were walking around as in love as anyone could possibly be with hearts fluttering above your head as you daydream your future away 
But one day, 
you catch your reflection in the glass displays by the sidewalk and find that they're gone?

What if your feelings were manifested into something somewhat tangible?
The notion that love isn't "blind" at all, something you can see and fully grasp with all your senses
You can see it on others and you can see it on yourself.

Friday, 8 July 2016

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

One of my favorite times of the year! 3 days are done and dusted. Raya has always meant a lot to me because i get to see a lot of my family and friends. I love open houses even though i'm not invited to a ton. Although i didn't have a snazzy new camera as i hoped i would to take pictures with this raya, i did what i could with what i had, my phone! Enjoy this photo diary of the first few days of bulan Syawal.


Saturday, 2 July 2016

Korean Buka Date

T  H  I  R  D    W  E  E  K
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I honestly think I don't see my girls enough. I know it seems like I've been out a lot this whole month since I've been back from uni but really, i don't spend enough time with my SuDu's (high school name reference that just stuck with us since we were 13) 
I know it seems like best friends should be the kind of people you talk to almost everyday and see at least once a week. But as i got older, i realize that that really doesn't matter. The friendship we have honestly surpasses that distance. Nevertheless, we or i should make more effort to see them more often.

This week I've mostly gone to the bazaar ramadan three times with Dzak & Anwar, buka with them once and spent the other nights at home. On Thursday, Izza came over to my place from Shah Alam and i drove us to Publika to meet up with Tania. The whole way there we were in this heated discussion that went from family to peer pressure to boys and basically things that were bothering us atm. It was like easiest therapy session ever & it was free! It's important to voice out our sorrows but the thing i love the most about my friends is that we can go from 0 to 100 just like that. By that i mean, talking about our frustrations to laughing our asses off over good Korean food.

Tuesday, 28 June 2016

Food For Thought #1

When did my life become a series of calculated decisions and actions?
I can't put my finger on exactly when but i really wish i could.
I never had to try so hard.
I never had to tiptoe around the things i do 
to make sure i didn't accidentally break something that i eventually had to fix.
to make sure i didn't piss somebody off.
to make sure i didn't give another person the wrong impression of me.

Sunday, 26 June 2016

Midnight Sahur


I hate to admit but right at this moment, I'm watching Keeping Up With The Kardashians whilst having a McDee's chocolate sundae with fries yum. Unhealthy diet for both my mind and body.
KUWTK is such a guilty pleasure of mine, other ridiculous reality shows are also my guilty pleasure like The Bachelor. I think the fundamentals of The Bachelor is so so funny. I could not recommend it more if you wanna have a go and laugh at what these girls put up with to find "love". Seriously.

Saturday, 25 June 2016

Non-blood sucking vampire.

S  E  C  O  N  D     W  E  E  K
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22.06.2016

Considering the fact that my wallet has been fairly thin after the first week of puasa, i was surprised as to how i managed to still get out of the house and communicate with people other than mah fam.

Monday: Humble Chef with Sofea Dzak and Anwar > Met up with Mat, Dem, Irfan & Mik @ Maistreet
It was really good to see Sof and of course not even a minute into seeing each other we were laughing. She told me to call her cause she was stuck, scared that moving her car would hit the Audi next to her but she was faaarr off hahaha. She was so stressed out to go get a legit parking near Humble Chef and took the first one we came across and walked down the whole way together, sigh so funny. It's probably a you-have-to-be-there-for-it-to-be-funny kind of thing lol. She had to leave after that and i tagged along to Mai with Anwar and Dzak.

Sunday, 19 June 2016

To fast is to cleanse.

R A M A D A N   K A R E E M
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I'm not the most pious person in the world but during Ramadan i try extra hard to make sure I'm a better Muslim. This is all, of course, very personal but I think it's important to say these things out loud. If you ask me, I do feel closer to Him every time this holy month comes around. I do a lot of self-reflection and although I am going through a hard time dealing with some things in my life right now, i do not doubt one bit that He will not put me through something like this without me coming out stronger at the end of it. 

I am guilty for praying harder only when times are hard and i need help. It's not entirely a bad thing, i know we're meant to look for guidance but i also know i need to thank Allah SWT more often and whisper Alhamdulillah to myself every morning for all that I'm blessed with.


Friday, 17 June 2016

Ramadan Kareem


F  I  R  S  T    W  E  E  K
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Monday was my first official day of fasting, i had to skip the first week of Ramadan due to being...a woman. I got really sick (like demam, runny nose & sore throat) on Saturday which was a total bummer.The whole weekend i was pretty much passed out on my bed and stuffing myself with  whatever was in the fridge to make me feel better.

I thiiink i only left the house Sunday night for terawih + drinks at Mai with my friends. I prayed with my family at the mosque near my home and met up with my friends at Mai soon after. That was also the night i successfully extended my curfew!! Hahaha. By 1 hour no less but still, from 11pm to 12am.  Most of my friends, even the girls don't even have curfews so this is pretty big deal for me lol. It was good to get out of the house and interact with people other than Musa (my baby nephew) & my 5 cats. 

Monday // 13.06.2016 @ Jibby Chow
 I had made plans with the Notts girls (Sha, Tania, Sofea & Nina) for my first time breaking fast this year. We pre-ordered and made reservations at @ Jibby Chow in Subang Jaya & i was hella excited cause i was hella hungry. I lost track of time and picked Sha up 15 minutes later than i was supposed to because i had to pump the gas, 630PM we were off and of course ended in the jamz y'all. 
It was bad. It was bad like, 

"Do you think sempat if i go down right now to that mamak and get us couple of papadoms to buka in the car?" 
"Sempat doh Sha actually. Capati kosong dua sikit. The cars are all lined up anyway"

This went on for quuuite a bit until it was too late for either of us to get anything from that mamak hahaha. It was really funny because we both knew we were actually dead serious. Tania unfortunately couldn't make it out of the 5 of us and i was legit upset about it, haven't seen that girl in so long since we ended our first year together. I miss her sarcastic humor and her crazy antics. 
All of us were pretty late for buka & probably sat there in silence eating for at least 10 minutes after Snapchatting everyone our glorious meal. I don't know if it was because i was fasting + being held back 20 minutes from breaking my fast, but everything was really good. I finished my bowl of rice so quickly. Besides the yam, everything else was aces.

Friday, 10 June 2016

Finally

P  R  E  S  S     S  T  A  R  T
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Throwback to 2014

For a looooong time, I thought i needed to have almost everything in my life sorted out before I even begin to decide pressing publish on any of my posts for "all" the world to see. I know now that i will never truly have my shit together lol because that's just how life is. And not just mine, I'm sure others feel the same way (Ya Allah, I hope they do because that would be really comforting to know rn). 

I had officially (besides obtaining my results) ended my first year of degree last Saturday! It's surreal. I thought it would feel like a weight being lifted off my shoulders but it really doesn't. If anything more weight has been put on my weak boney shoulders. 
Yknow, i had no idea that the first year of degree was merely a qualifying year. Yea i know, nobody told me nor did i know enough to find out myself...It basically means my grades don't mean squat at the end of my degree ha hahah ahaha. It's a good thing in the end i suppose but also would have spared me a lot of stress during those two semesters where i had more than a couple breakdowns had i known those grades on my screen won't be reflected back at me later on in the years.